Nothing Good

For the last 2 weeks, I could conduct a clinic on laziness. For the month or so before that - I was doing great. The gym was an automatic thing. I was feeling great. I was starting to see results. I was feeling mighty. I would even...dare I say it...look forward to my time at the gym. 

I went into Christmas with a plan. I lined up people to break me into the gym. I borrowed a card from another friend. I even got up after three hours of sleep one night to go to the gym. I knew it was a slippery slope. If I skipped one session, it is easier to skip another session. Before I know it...it is 2 weeks later!! (Like right now!)

Even with all of this planning, and even with all of the positives that my brain can absolutely remember - I have been sitting on my ass for two weeks. Two weeks. 14 days. Entirely too damn long.

I wish I could tell you why. Every night I make a plan for the next day. I have a list of things I am going to accomplish in my next 24 hours. There is no question that I will be eating well and going to the gym. It is on my schedule! I have my meals planned out. I have my shopping lists made. I have the gym worked in in the most efficient spot. There is no way I won't have success. I have a plan! But, sadly, planning is only half the battle.....

The morning comes. I struggle to talk myself into getting out of bed. On many of the days, I have even gone so far as to shower and dress for the gym. And that's where it all goes haywire. I think of something else I want to do. Somewhere else I want to go. Something else I want to eat. And my whole schedule gets flushed down the toilet. Quickly. 

I started out trying to fight the guilt. Trying to talk myself out of feeling bad for missing another day. Trying not to beat myself up for eating crap I shouldn't eat. But every day I would make the decision to be disappointed with myself, rather than just get my rear to the gym. Why? Not sure. But something had to be done. 

When I return to MN in March, I have numerous friends who belong to my gym. I am certain I can put them in charge of babysitting me when I hit these tough patches. Since I am currently by myself, I contacted YC and let him know I would be in need of some babysitting. I have an appointment with him Thursday morning, and will be setting 2-3 appointments with him for the next week or so...until I am once again capable of getting myself there.

The bright spot is, I have gotten a lot of knitting done. But there is no reason why I can't get to the gym, and still get some knitting done when I am finished. Time management. Yet another opportunity for improvement in 2011.

I hope you are all having a fantastic start to your year. I am going to work on catching up...starting right now!