My brain has definitely betrayed me. I thought it was on my side, but can now see that I have been duped. One more thing I failed to remember is the pain that comes from slacking for too long, and then trying to get back in to exercise. It reminds me of that first week of basketball practice back in high school where everything hurt, and muscles you didn't even know existed began to rebel! That is what I am living through today.
Yesterday, YC had me do 4 sets of squats with added weight (like hauling this rear end up and down isn't enough!??!?), and then had me do 3 sets of lunges with a ball over my head. My legs are KILLING ME today. (What is the opposite of a Shout out? Because that is what lunges and squats get today!) I got out of bed OK - was shocked, actually, at how good I was feeling. I had some breakfast and headed to the gym for an hour on the elliptical. I was feeling great when I got done. No problem...a piece of cake, right?! Wrong. Unbeknownst to me on my ride home, my legs were seizing up. By the time I got to my house, I had to cringe when I put my first leg out of the car, and audibly whimper when I pushed myself (using both arms to help me) out of the vehicle. Ouch. Suddenly, tasks as menial as walking, were a challenge. Getting on to and off of the couch, the toilet, the chair on the patio - all of them were painful! All I kept thinking was - how could I forget this? How could I have failed to comprehend that my body was going to rebel after so much time being stagnant? How did I do this to myself...again! If you just stick with things...you don't have to go through this excruciating "starting over phase" that is currently requiring facial contortions and a great deal of moaning to get me up from a seated to standing position!! How could I forget? I guess that portion of my brain must have been occupied by pizza cravings for the last 3 months?
Regardless, I am going to survive this. I will get up tomorrow (God willing) and go back to the gym for more torture. The only thing that is saving me at this point is that I don't have to meet with YC again until next Wednesday. I am hoping by them I am able to regain the full range of motion, and use of, my lower limbs.
Your positive thoughts would be appreciated at this time. Thank you!
The opposite of shout out may possibly be ease it back...well, dumb...I don't know.
ReplyDeleteMy positive thought is that April 2011 is just around the bend and I have a nice camera that will capture great pics of you as you dive from a plane...I want you sexy for those. Keep it up, Sista!
Natalie,
ReplyDeletethanks for reminding me that the best thing to do after the pain is to go back for more pain! God I love your perseverance, woman. Kudos for you.