Thursday, January 6, 2011

Nothing Good

For the last 2 weeks, I could conduct a clinic on laziness. For the month or so before that - I was doing great. The gym was an automatic thing. I was feeling great. I was starting to see results. I was feeling mighty. I would even...dare I say it...look forward to my time at the gym. 

I went into Christmas with a plan. I lined up people to break me into the gym. I borrowed a card from another friend. I even got up after three hours of sleep one night to go to the gym. I knew it was a slippery slope. If I skipped one session, it is easier to skip another session. Before I know is 2 weeks later!! (Like right now!)

Even with all of this planning, and even with all of the positives that my brain can absolutely remember - I have been sitting on my ass for two weeks. Two weeks. 14 days. Entirely too damn long.

I wish I could tell you why. Every night I make a plan for the next day. I have a list of things I am going to accomplish in my next 24 hours. There is no question that I will be eating well and going to the gym. It is on my schedule! I have my meals planned out. I have my shopping lists made. I have the gym worked in in the most efficient spot. There is no way I won't have success. I have a plan! But, sadly, planning is only half the battle.....

The morning comes. I struggle to talk myself into getting out of bed. On many of the days, I have even gone so far as to shower and dress for the gym. And that's where it all goes haywire. I think of something else I want to do. Somewhere else I want to go. Something else I want to eat. And my whole schedule gets flushed down the toilet. Quickly. 

I started out trying to fight the guilt. Trying to talk myself out of feeling bad for missing another day. Trying not to beat myself up for eating crap I shouldn't eat. But every day I would make the decision to be disappointed with myself, rather than just get my rear to the gym. Why? Not sure. But something had to be done. 

When I return to MN in March, I have numerous friends who belong to my gym. I am certain I can put them in charge of babysitting me when I hit these tough patches. Since I am currently by myself, I contacted YC and let him know I would be in need of some babysitting. I have an appointment with him Thursday morning, and will be setting 2-3 appointments with him for the next week or so...until I am once again capable of getting myself there.

The bright spot is, I have gotten a lot of knitting done. But there is no reason why I can't get to the gym, and still get some knitting done when I am finished. Time management. Yet another opportunity for improvement in 2011.

I hope you are all having a fantastic start to your year. I am going to work on catching up...starting right now!


  1. At least you got something done. I am right there with you in having planned the right things and now I don't want to do them. I think I am rebellious even against myself.

  2. Hey, making an appointment with YC sounds like a step in the right direction! I'm sure you'll be back to your old gym routine in no time!

  3. Get back on it!!! It might be hard at first but eventually it will get easier and you'll be back to your motivated/positive state. Im speaking from experience :)
    PS: Nice blog!


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